I recently started a new chapter in life, a chapter that some people love, while others fear it.
Getting a job with my favorite clothing store + brand is a dream come true, and with only two weeks in, I have learned so much about myself and the ability for others to (unintentionally) make me feel like I need to change everything about myself.
(A little bit of back story); the only jobs I have had have either been in offices, or coffee. Complete opposites, but I was mostly used to the coffee world - you could wear anything as long as you made a killer cappuccino.
The first day of this new job was like the first day of a school year, but I wasn’t picking out my outfit for the first impression of my classmates, but the first impression of my fashionable co-workers. Getting there and meeting them, I didn’t feel like I fit in simply based on how I dressed, my hair, even down to my make up. I hadn’t felt this way in years. I felt the need to go shopping right away, get my hair done. I was in a panic.
Let me clarify though, the girls at this new job could not have been more loving + welcoming, and did nothing to make me feel this way. It was all in my own head. But why? I wasn’t hesitant to compare myself right from the start and feel intimidated because I wore a different style jean than someone else.
Getting stuck in traffic seems to be when I get the most thinking done, and I kept asking myself why I felt this way. What was the source? I felt like I was confident with myself, so why did that slip the second I walked through the door? I also know, I am not the first or the last person to feel this way.
We’ve all felt the pressure from the fashion industry, make-up industry, or really any industry that we allow to alter our appearance; but why make these a negative thing when they can be fun, creative outlets! Be you with what you wear, have your hair a mess, wear make up or don’t, just be creative and be you.
It doesn’t matter what is in, or what other people are wearing, as long as you love it and are confident in it.
Written and loved on by Xanna Kidd
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