By Leena Nesheiwat
I had this plan laid out for the fall. I knew where I was moving for school. I had a general idea of how I was going to invest myself and the rest of my life in this new city. I basically had planned the rest of my life there. Long story short, things didn’t fall into place and it left me a mess. I fell so hard onto my knees, but I quickly got back up because didn’t want anyone to see my weakness or pain in this moment. Just a couple of weeks ago, I took a trip by myself there to visit a couple of friends that live out there and also explore the city on my own and being there opened back up that wound and forced me to deal with the pain.
To be completely honest, I am still a little confused as to why God isn’t sending me there now, but I have complete faith that there is a reason I am staying here. Now I am in this season of transition and it is weird and uncomfortable, but I am learning in the process that this feeling is completely okay and completely normal.
It is okay to feel lost and confused, but it is not okay to let those feelings paralyze you.
I noticed that when I came back from my trip, I wanted to hold back from investing in anything new. I wasn’t really sure why I felt this way, but a friend of mine called me out and told me I am not allowing God to move in my life.
In order for God to move, you have to step from the comfortable into the uncomfortable. God wants to stretch you and use you in ways you never would expect and He can’t do that if you refuse to move.
Give yourself time to heal and time to really invest in discovering and unburying your purpose and what God wants you to create with your life. Don’t give up when things don’t fall into place.