Depression is sneaky. It creeps in bit by bit and also all at once. It affects our actions, appetite, habits, and identity. Oh, but it’s hard to spot because there is no formula for depression.
Depression looks different for me than it may for you. My feelings, actions, blame, guilt, they all played a role in my depression. But I’m not going to pretend that you’re depression feels the same way as mine.
There is no A + B + C = symptoms. There is not one definitive cause.
But there are some truths about depression that I wish someone would have told me and that I don’t think we hear enough.
I am here to tell you that you don’t have to go through a life-altering event to be launched into depression.
I am here to tell you that discovering your depression does not mean you are a dramatic person.
I am here to tell you that depression can come in waves. It can come and go or stay in place.
I am here to tell you to tell someone. Anyone. Even if it’s in the most awkward or the most vague way. It doesn’t matter how, but speak your depression into reality. If you are depressed you are allowed to validate it through audible words. You need to say I need help in order to get help.
I am not a doctor or a therapist. I do not know your circumstances or even how you feel.
But I do know that in order to deal with your depression, whatever it looks like, you have to validate it. Don’t run from it or call yourself dramatic. The biggest regret I have after realizing I was depressed was internally running from it for so long.
I slept for days. I over ate and then never ate. I drank a lot and ran from my feelings even more. One day it all caught up to me. My feelings overwhelmed me and I wondered why I was so detached. It wasn’t until someone else spoke about their depression that I could put a name to what I was going through. Once I could do that, I started taking the steps that were right for me.
There isn’t a definitive cause for depression and the help isn’t the same for everyone. What I do hope is that if you are facing depression that you find strength through these words or someone else's to do just that: face it.
You are loved. You are worth loving. You are worth being helped.